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Its a dead end.

Its a dead end.

September 21,2012

ayo is a dead end. The solution I wanted to hear did not pan out. The doctors at Mayo told me that my only option is more chemo treatment. There’s more. They validated the only two remaining chemo drug options available to me: one I had an allergic reaction to and the other a new drug recently approved by the US Food and Drug Administration (FDA).

Needless to say I was disappointed and at the same time relieved. The trip to Mayo clearly showed not only the road ahead is hard and challenging, but I am also headed in the right direction. I am getting the best care possible from my current doctors—world class care.

The Mayo world is amazing; you can see their singular focus on patient care. The technology and resources they harness for their patients are impressive. They make it easy for you by building a whole ecosystem around you.  You check-in and you are provided with your scheduled appointments.  If additional tests are needed, they handle it.  They help you find the find the answer, thereby giving hope.

Symmetrical Labyrinth

Reluctantly, I found my answer: my options are limited. I need to trust the path in front of me and use hope as a guiding light. This journey is like walking through a labyrinth, wherein the only choice is the decision to enter and trust the path. I wish it was simple. I have anxieties.  The anxieties I feel, at times, suffocates the trust that needs to shine through for me to finish. I am glad you are there. I will get to the end of this path, just be there.

Tomorrow, I leave for Basel, Switzerland for a month on business. From there it will be a short hop to Berlin, where my wife and I will run the marathon on September 30. I have many people to be thankful for this opportunity and I know you will be cheering for me. The Berlin marathon is a new ‘labyrinth’ for me and it is the fastest course in the world. I will be lost among the over 40,000 runners. I will be a runner not a cancer survivor. It will be blissfully painful.

Besides, I got to give those Kenyans a run for their money. U-S-A! U-S-A!


P.S. My oncologist gave me his consent to be gone for a month on a condition I take an oral chemo treatment (in pill form) after the marathon. Whoever invented this oral chemo should be shot! But I love my oncologist. No worries. I have my personal nurse, wife, training partner traveling with me so, I am good to go.

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