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Round 2: One Note Samba

Round 2: One note samba
September 7, 2013


could still almost hear it in my head.  The mellow and soothing sound of the song ‘One note samba’.  It was the last song that I heard as I go off to ‘la…la…land’ of chemo dreams.

Before they give you the chemo drug, they load you up with the ‘happy cocktail’ of benadryl (to make you fall asleep) and zantac (to settle your stomach).  Then comes the chemo drugs.  I don’t remember much of it.  I normally listen to music to zone out the hospital noise and beeping of infusion pumps.  I wish I can isolate the sterile and distinctive smell of chemo.

The place has not changed much only the patients.  I remember the time I had a relapse and had to come back for more treatments (First day at school…chemo school dated January 14, 2010), it was surreal.  Now, the cancer center has become my second home.  This place keeps me grounded.  You see and meet patients in various stages of their struggle.

This time around I woke up from my dream and found Angela next to my chair.  She came with her mother and six-year old son, Ian.  Angela is also a patient of my doctor so we got to talk.  I learned that Angela has cervical cancer and her tumor is growing.  She was also given the ‘quality of life’ talk by her doctors but refused to give up.  I can relate to that.  What is there to lose when you are given a bad prognosis; you just keep on going.

So she keeps going for her young son.  This is the hardest part of this disease: finding peace that everything will be alright when you are gone.  It will be.

That was a week ago, August 29.  I am off the chemo pills too for the next 7-days and then I start again.  Now I have to take advantage of this break and do some running.

P.S.  I got a request to write about my mom.  Oh boy, don’t get me started on that.




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