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Happy halloween.

Happy halloween.
October 31, 2015

IIt is a rainy halloween here in Chicago but it is not dampening the ghoulish spirit of the kids: Trick or treat!  They are having fun.  I love it.

For this halloween, I made a costume of my little-man Ethan. He is fond of Baymax from the movie Big Hero 6, so I made him the armored version. I must admit I like that movie very much.

So I looked for a way to make it and found one in YouTube using paper plates. I used his bike helmet too and covered it with paper plates. Here is the thin version.


My son took him to a costume contest but he did not win. I think he was cheated. Next time I will make him a better costume to blow away the competition.

He is growing up fast and is eats a lot. I am training him to become vegetarian but my family forgets. He eats tofu, broccoli, and all vegetables. His favorite snack is edemame. I taught him to say “don’t eat cows or pigs” which he tells his mom. However, he is not convinced cheese burgers are bad and made from cows.

I think he gets confused.  He eats vege burgers, chickenless chicken nuggets (made from soy), and meatless meatballs (also made from soy). He often asks for the meatless meatballs for dinner and of course burgers, nuggets, and meatballs are all associated with meat and poultry. Also, we are a Filipino family and if you have been to a Filipino party you would see it is not for vegetarians.  Stay strong E; cows, pigs, and chickens are friends not food. Oh well.

Other news:

Rib pain:  I have been having this pain in my left rib, so yesterday I had x-ray done to check.  It maybe that my lung tumors are “disturbing” my ribs.  More tests.  Never ends.

Hair cut:  It’s halloween and my dark humors pops out once in a while.  I cut my hair short, I call it the coffin look.


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Judgment day version x.x

Judgment day version x.x
August 6, 2015

I lost count on how many CT scans I have done. All I know none of them were good except for one or two, which was several years ago.

Tomorrow’s scan is to verify if I am responding to my current clinical trial, which I have been taking for two months now. I use to be anxious on the eve of my scan but now I seem to be more at peace. The outcome of tomorrow’s scan is already pre-destined, meaning I cannot change it. Just like tomorrow; ready or not it will come.

I am ready. If the scan is good, I continue with treatment; if not, I look for another treatment.

No matter what the outcome is, I will celebrate tomorrow. Maybe take the day off and take my BFF Ethan to the water park. Soak up some rays and chill out floating around the lazy river. Yeah!



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Summer fun.

Summer fun.
August 2, 2015

Lately, I have been enjoying my summer hanging out with my wife and Ethan. Instead of my normal summer that is about marathon training, this year it is all about Ethan.

I am not signed up for any fall marathon and I cannot run much now a days, but I still keep active, mostly walking and yoga. I miss running.  My mom had reminded me that I should remain positive. She laments that at her age (83 years old) she no longer go to the mall or crowded places; however, that does not mean she does not go out.  She still regularly plays mahjong with her friends. She says it prevent alzheimer …ha…ha!

She is right about keeping a positive attitude. It is about the things you can do, not about the things you can no longer do. More importantly, I am still here.

So now, my wife and I have our long walks and we go visit water parks with Ethan. That is his favorite activity aside soccer. He loves water parks. Fortunately, we have many water playgrounds and district water parks so we go when we can. He can play until he is wrinkled and blue, while I like to hang around the lazy river.  Fun.

Next week Friday, August 7, is judgment day again. I have my CT scan and we will find out if I am responding to my current clinical trial. I am hoping for the best. Good or bad I will not stop it to have a wonderful summer hanging out with Ethan.

Enjoy your summer.


Summer fun with Ethan

Summer fun with Ethan

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Living in hope.
July 5, 2015

In the US it is the 4th of July weekend. There are parades, barbecues, fireworks, and holiday sale.

We celebrated our holiday by watching fireworks with Ethan, our grandson. It was his first fireworks so it was an experience for him, and for us. We thought he will be scared of the loud “booms” since we were close to feel them, but he enjoyed.

This weekend also marks one week since I have completed the first cycle of my chemo trials: The chemo come in pill form. I started last June 13, completed the two week cycle, and then two weeks off. I start the second cycle on July 13.

So far the side-effects have been limited to nausea, constipation, and tiredness. To keep active, I am limited to walking. Can’t run because I get tired easily.

With summertime here, I miss running at the lakefront. I equate summer to marathon training and it is such a beautiful feeling. You get to enjoy the cool lake breeze, the sun, and seeing other runners. I hope someday I will be able to do it again. Hope is what keeps me going.

With one cycle complete, I need to do another cycle (July 13), then a scan. It is during that time when faith and hope is going to be tested again. In the meantime, I will enjoy my summer and continue to live in hope.

Happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July


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Ethan’s World.

Ethan’s World.

May 1, 2015

FFour years ago I was blessed with the arrival of my grandson, Ethan.  Back then while in agony of late night chemo rebound, I had asked God to make me live long to see my grandkids.  He took my moment of weakness seriously.  Ha!  I am glad he did.

Since then, I have been enjoying Ethan for the past four years.  He celebrated his birthday last Saturday, April 25.  He received a bike bike for his birthday so now he can’t wait to go home after school to ride.  He would don his Spider man helmet, knee pads, elbow pads, and gloves, and off he goes.  His world is protected, care-free, and innocent.

My boy

My favorite baby pic of E

Where has time gone?  Looking back I count: That’s four years with Ethan and seven years of living with cancer. You really have to make the most of the time given you because you will never now when the fun stops.

Each night, after taking a bath and in his pajamas, Ethan would come to our room to say good night.  He would enter our room sometimes prone like a frog then leap his way to our bed: Ribbit…Ribbit.  Or sometimes he enters as a cheetah roaring and trying to scare us: Roar!  He completes my day.


He is oblivious to the fact I have cancer: I am Ampa, his playmate, and nemesis at times.  I am thankful he came to my life.  His innocence makes me forget cancer and makes me look forward to tomorrow.  He gives me hope that somehow I will be leaving him something that is part of me, like the memories of our time together.


Big boy at 4 years old.

E-boy now 4 years old

“The only thing we take with us when we die is what we have given away…” – Archbishop Sartain of Seattle, WA.


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E’s World: Hello…Santa!

December 25, 2013

Santa's Helper

Red is my new favorite color.  The big guy (Santa) wears it, and he seems to be all over the place; in the mall, in stores, in parades, and even races.  He has been so busy, but he managed to pass by the house last night.

I love this guy.  He gave me and my family many gifts.  I got clothes, snow boots, a toy truck (which I love), a tablet, and some more clothes.  I outgrow them fast.

I am beginning to understand the importance of Christmas: Me!  It is all about me…me…and me.  Also, I am beginning to learn the power of tantrum too.  I cry and they give; especially with my Grama (that’s my great-grandmother).  My Grama is such a push over.  When mom is at work, Grama is my babysitter.  She would chase me around when it is time for lunch, then she give up.  But then again, I get hungry.

Mom tells me if I behave I can be Santa’s helper next year.  That would be the coolest job; one for me, one for you…one for me, one for you.  That’s why I love Christmas, too bad it only happens once a year.

My family had a busy year and they are thankful that they got through it.  Next year I will be ready.  It is really about being ready if you think about it; ready for the next day or the opportunity to give back.  The spirit of giving.  However, I am still young, unemployed, and still in diapers, so you better be ready to give …to me!  I love it.

Jingle bells…jingle bells…jingle all the way.

Santa Race


Oh…I got behave tomorrow.  My Ampa is having chemo tomorrow.

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Father’s Day.

June 17, 2013

YYesterday was Father’s Day.  My day started with an early morning five-mile run with my wife.  It is  one of those things (running) that I like to get out of the way first.

There are times when I don’t feel like going.  I know that waking up at 5:30 am to run is not exactly an exciting activity.  But then if I don’t exercise I feel guilty.  My body has been good to me: it took a lot of beating from surgeries to endless chemo sessions.  It allowed me to complete marathons in between sessions or just be around for precious moments with family, friends, and you.  So if I don’t pay homage to my body I feel guilty.

Yesterday also was the first time that we broke the five-mile barrier.  It was a confidence builder leading up to a half-marathon this August.  My Father’s Day celebration was capped off with a barbecue with the family.  Oh, I got some gifts too which was cool.

Going to Manila.

This Thursday, I leave for Manila for a short visit.  My oncologist had cleared me to go when I saw him last week.  He said that I look fit and tan (Doc, I am asian and brown-skinned, remember?).  I do feel good and looking forward to see my family back home.  It is one of those opportunities that I just have to make the most of it.  The lessons I have learned on the value of life has made me appreciate all the blessing that I have.

I enjoy each day that is given to me.  What makes it special is how and who I spend it with.


P.S. Some friends were asking about Ethan.  He is busy enjoying the summer and too busy to write blogs…hehe.

Swimming in my private pool on Father's Day.

Swimming in my private pool on Father’s Day.

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