Life has a way of changing you.
January 13, 2013
inally, it is here. I could get my Downton Abbey Season 3 fix. If you are one those who follow this TV drama in PBS you know the feeling. It is unfair that First Lady Michele Obama got to see the whole season ahead, oh well.
I don’t watch too much TV but I make an exception to Downton Abbey; besides it is commercial-free in PBS, which is home to Big Bird…if you know what I mean. (Note: For my international friend, during the debate on tax cuts, the Republicans threaten to cut funding to PBS, home of Sesame Street: Big Bird and his friends. Don’t touch Big Bird was the cry). The TV drama series has a huge following here in the US.
I am a history buff and this was set during the Eduardian and post-Eduardian era. It follows the lives of the aristocratic lives of the Crawley family. The one thing that held my interest in this TV drama is the crisp, subtle and meaningful dialogue; and the intriguing character. So when the butler Mr. Carson said in one of the episodes (in monotoned English clip):
”Life has a way of changing you.” It hit me.
Life has force me to changed. I, at times, would look back at my long journey and compare my life before cancer and my present one. I have definitely change for the better inspite of the things I have given up, like red meat. You have to change to get better and find out more about yourself. Sometimes you have to fears in order to improve or get the most out of life. It is like jumping out of an airplane to face your fear of height, right?
My fear is my mortality. I get tested with it every other week during chemo, which I cannot get use to. However, when you look at the long road I have taken since March 2008, I have survived them all. I have made so many friends along the way. I have discovered myself and I think you have too with the stories I tell. I am glad that I have changed because I am able to appreciate life more fully now.
I have another milestone coming: re-staging my cancer. This Thursday, January 17, I will have my CT scan to verify if I am responding to my current treatment using the new chemo drug, Zaltrap. Oh yes, I have done many scans before and I also have received good news and bad news from the results This time, I am hoping for good news that my nodules are gone or at least have shrunk. What can I say, except thanks for your support and prayers. Will let you know. Onward with my real-life drama.
P.S. NYC marathon have opened up the registration for 2013 for those who were not able to run the canceled 2012 marathon. I will decide if I will run 2013 after my scan results.